No Turning Back

I'm packed and am now sitting in the backseat of my parents' car as we head out to the airport. No turning back now! (Though I don't think I would anyway.) It all feels strangely surreal, but I have a feeling it will hit me hard as I part with my parents at security. You know, the line "No turning back" is from a song I learned as a little girl. The words are "I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back." Well, kind of. Here are repeated phrases and stuff, too. But no matter. This is me following Jesus, and I will never turn back. I have decided to follow Jesus, and there is nothing sweeter.

Kindergarten??

So I have word that a school my friend works at in Bangkok is looking for a kindergarten teacher. If you know me, you know I have VERY little experience with young children. I don't know that I would be good in that position.. but I also don't know that I wouldn't be good in that position. It would all be up to whether or not it is God's idea. If it's what he wants, he'll make it happen and work through me. But the question is: Is this what God wants?

I was told about this school and the opportunity it presents to be a light to others, both students and staff. I was told it pays relatively well, AND I would have the opportunity to work at the same school as a dear friend. But I never imagined it might be a kindergarten position. Maybe something else will open up? I don't know. And it's a good thing I don't have to yet. Pray with me that I might be able to discern the path that God is laying out for me as my date of departure draws nearer. Pray that he makes it CLEAR where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing. And I trust he will.

Just a little over two weeks left!

Ready?

Okay. So I now have a plane ticket and a visa. Logistically.. I'm pretty ready to go.. Except the whole packing and raising extra money thing.. Spiritually, I suppose I'm ready. I mean, what do I do to prepare spiritually? Trust God with every step, right? Find my return to Thailand verse? I have: 


Romans 1:11-12. "For I long to visit you so that I can bring you some spiritual gift that will help you grow strong in the Lord. When we get together, I want to encourage you in your faith, but I also want to be encouraged by yours."


That's a pretty short summary of why I am returning. I do recognize it will be difficult and lonely at times. I realize that I will get homesick and wonder if anyone at home still cares. But I know that if I continually trust, Jesus will always be my source of comfort and he will remind me that I am where I am needed at that time.


Yes, I am nervous and anxious and uncertain about what is to come, but I'm also excited to jump back into these relationships and to see God move in big ways. My prayer over and over in preparation for leaving is that God will direct my steps and show me what I need to do. My second prayer is that I hear him.